The aim of life is self-development. To realize one's nature perfectly - that is what each of us is here for.
Oscar Wilde (1854 - 1900),
It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not.
Andre Gide (1869 - 1951)
I think it goes without saying that I'm a hated man, many people don't like me, and maybe a few more would like to see me dead. Perhaps it stems from the fact that I'm self righteous, thats it's no secret that when I tell someone that I'm better than them, I mean it, and it's true. The problems that eat other men alive, I laugh off, the woes of others lives, I could give a shit less about, and I'm totally comfortable with that. I know people get upset with me when I deliver proof of my genius, and it hurts them, it damages their pride and they have to reflect on themselves in a way that makes them feel bad, but fuck that, because self doubt is the greatest sign of inadequacy. I value myself and my own life, so much in fact that I do not take risks, and would gladly allow any number of people to die, to save my own skin, and once again, I'm totally comfortable with that.
With that said, I come to a point about my life that is starting to irritate me, that I haven't been as frank with people as I should be. Point in question, the other day, I go to my buddy James house to play Halo, we have like eight guys over at James condo, that I will add he paid for himself, maintains himself, and opens to us with the best of intentions, but everytime we go over thier, someone trashes the place, lets his cat out, or does some other shit that really irks my gourd. Now listen, James is making his own way in life, and he is being kind enough to let most of these go with him, he and I have always related, we actually work, we have 9-5 jobs, we have financial expenses and we have responsibilities, thats why whenever I go over to his house I always insist on leaving money for him to recoup the costs of any food I ate, his beer I drank, or for him to do whatever with, I work, I understand fully well how expensive things can get, and when we decide to order a pizza the other night, remarkably everyone execpt myself, James, and Thorns are broke. I don't understand this at all, now Stubby I can excuse, he has been away at school for close to 9 months without a job, and just got back home and started his job again, thats perfectly exceptable, and I wouldn't dream of charging him anything because he ALWAYS pays back his debts in full. Now when other people, mainly the people who evidently decided to jerk off for a living instead of working, cry poor like they do every fucking week I get upset, because we always have money for cigarettes, or to do whatever the fuck they want to do, but when they go somewhere with me, thier always fucking broke, and expect me or someone else to pick up the tab, point in question, we can afford a $5 skillet at dennys, but we can go to a pool hall every fucking night. This is really getting fucking ridiculious. to top it off, James and I have to drive 3 miles to an ATM draw out cash, and pickup a pizza that everyone else ate. Thats just fucking insulting, my brother who is fifteen, and doesn't have a job, shelled out cash, and these guys sit in his house, drink his beer and don't even offer to get off thier asses to pickup food thier going to eat and not pay for. I really, really wanted to bitch these guys out, because thier behavior shows a total lack of class that has just become totally unacceptable. Don't even bother going out if your going to be crying poor, and don't expect to survive on your own if you can't demonstrate sound financial planning. Everything I have, and everything that I do, I paid for with my money I earn, I have never had less than two jobs, and I continue to have at least a little security by working my ass off to get an excellent job, saving and investing, and realizing that I will spend the rest of my life working, I can't dodge it, and I can't spend anymore time sitting on my dick doing nothing and goofing off, my party days are over and I am more than comfortable with that.
Next, I have grown increasingly tired of people and thier incesant bragging. I don't care how hot your girlfriend is (because no one is ever as good looking as they or others claim them to be and the only flawless being is god, and as soon as you learn that your better off) how much money you make, or who your nailing (because when and believe me she will get pregnant, and your broke, your both fucked literally) these damn things keep coming up, and I have to keep repressing all this anger over them, because it's just fucking getting old, point in question this miserable braggart I know who believes he's gods gift to everything, and it's just arrogant and wrong, and a sign of poor taste.
I have also increasingly become upset with peoples carelessness and immaturity. I spend my days dealing with drunks and wife beaters and I dont like spending my off time dealing with equally crude people. I went to an all guys high school, and I was forced to deal with thier constant unruly behavior, thier constant need to scratch themselves, pass gas and do all manner of crude shit with no regard for those around them. I went to eight years of catholic grade school before I set foot in a catholic high school, and if I EVER even thought about doing that in grade school, it was detention city, when I ask them why they feel the need to do that, the answer is "it's only guys here, who cares" it's simple, I FUCKING CARE, my parents paid good money to send me to a college prep school, where I earn a quality education, and learn excellent manners and etiquite, if I have to let one rip, I got up excused myself to the washroom, and then came back, it's the principle of the thing. It's obsene and certain people and most importantly certain cultures take offense to things like that. I also point out that everything with people these days seems to be a goddamn joke, nothing is serious and no one is capable of dealing with things in a timely and mature manner. I getting fucking tired of being the only one who wants to get anything done anymore, I get in a room, sit down for five minutes, and then feel a need to get up and get moving again, I can't sit on my laurels when shit needs to get done and that seems like everyday.
It's just getting to be a struggle with me, so much about other people is starting to piss me off, and I feel like I'm losing it, I hate the fact that i'm not doing anything about stuff that is obviously pissing me the fuck off, but I still try even though I'm an asshole to be respectful and appropriate.
Doctors Remedy For the Situations: Take A Dose Of Reality, And Grow THE FUCK UP!
Oscar Wilde (1854 - 1900),
It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not.
Andre Gide (1869 - 1951)
I think it goes without saying that I'm a hated man, many people don't like me, and maybe a few more would like to see me dead. Perhaps it stems from the fact that I'm self righteous, thats it's no secret that when I tell someone that I'm better than them, I mean it, and it's true. The problems that eat other men alive, I laugh off, the woes of others lives, I could give a shit less about, and I'm totally comfortable with that. I know people get upset with me when I deliver proof of my genius, and it hurts them, it damages their pride and they have to reflect on themselves in a way that makes them feel bad, but fuck that, because self doubt is the greatest sign of inadequacy. I value myself and my own life, so much in fact that I do not take risks, and would gladly allow any number of people to die, to save my own skin, and once again, I'm totally comfortable with that.
With that said, I come to a point about my life that is starting to irritate me, that I haven't been as frank with people as I should be. Point in question, the other day, I go to my buddy James house to play Halo, we have like eight guys over at James condo, that I will add he paid for himself, maintains himself, and opens to us with the best of intentions, but everytime we go over thier, someone trashes the place, lets his cat out, or does some other shit that really irks my gourd. Now listen, James is making his own way in life, and he is being kind enough to let most of these go with him, he and I have always related, we actually work, we have 9-5 jobs, we have financial expenses and we have responsibilities, thats why whenever I go over to his house I always insist on leaving money for him to recoup the costs of any food I ate, his beer I drank, or for him to do whatever with, I work, I understand fully well how expensive things can get, and when we decide to order a pizza the other night, remarkably everyone execpt myself, James, and Thorns are broke. I don't understand this at all, now Stubby I can excuse, he has been away at school for close to 9 months without a job, and just got back home and started his job again, thats perfectly exceptable, and I wouldn't dream of charging him anything because he ALWAYS pays back his debts in full. Now when other people, mainly the people who evidently decided to jerk off for a living instead of working, cry poor like they do every fucking week I get upset, because we always have money for cigarettes, or to do whatever the fuck they want to do, but when they go somewhere with me, thier always fucking broke, and expect me or someone else to pick up the tab, point in question, we can afford a $5 skillet at dennys, but we can go to a pool hall every fucking night. This is really getting fucking ridiculious. to top it off, James and I have to drive 3 miles to an ATM draw out cash, and pickup a pizza that everyone else ate. Thats just fucking insulting, my brother who is fifteen, and doesn't have a job, shelled out cash, and these guys sit in his house, drink his beer and don't even offer to get off thier asses to pickup food thier going to eat and not pay for. I really, really wanted to bitch these guys out, because thier behavior shows a total lack of class that has just become totally unacceptable. Don't even bother going out if your going to be crying poor, and don't expect to survive on your own if you can't demonstrate sound financial planning. Everything I have, and everything that I do, I paid for with my money I earn, I have never had less than two jobs, and I continue to have at least a little security by working my ass off to get an excellent job, saving and investing, and realizing that I will spend the rest of my life working, I can't dodge it, and I can't spend anymore time sitting on my dick doing nothing and goofing off, my party days are over and I am more than comfortable with that.
Next, I have grown increasingly tired of people and thier incesant bragging. I don't care how hot your girlfriend is (because no one is ever as good looking as they or others claim them to be and the only flawless being is god, and as soon as you learn that your better off) how much money you make, or who your nailing (because when and believe me she will get pregnant, and your broke, your both fucked literally) these damn things keep coming up, and I have to keep repressing all this anger over them, because it's just fucking getting old, point in question this miserable braggart I know who believes he's gods gift to everything, and it's just arrogant and wrong, and a sign of poor taste.
I have also increasingly become upset with peoples carelessness and immaturity. I spend my days dealing with drunks and wife beaters and I dont like spending my off time dealing with equally crude people. I went to an all guys high school, and I was forced to deal with thier constant unruly behavior, thier constant need to scratch themselves, pass gas and do all manner of crude shit with no regard for those around them. I went to eight years of catholic grade school before I set foot in a catholic high school, and if I EVER even thought about doing that in grade school, it was detention city, when I ask them why they feel the need to do that, the answer is "it's only guys here, who cares" it's simple, I FUCKING CARE, my parents paid good money to send me to a college prep school, where I earn a quality education, and learn excellent manners and etiquite, if I have to let one rip, I got up excused myself to the washroom, and then came back, it's the principle of the thing. It's obsene and certain people and most importantly certain cultures take offense to things like that. I also point out that everything with people these days seems to be a goddamn joke, nothing is serious and no one is capable of dealing with things in a timely and mature manner. I getting fucking tired of being the only one who wants to get anything done anymore, I get in a room, sit down for five minutes, and then feel a need to get up and get moving again, I can't sit on my laurels when shit needs to get done and that seems like everyday.
It's just getting to be a struggle with me, so much about other people is starting to piss me off, and I feel like I'm losing it, I hate the fact that i'm not doing anything about stuff that is obviously pissing me the fuck off, but I still try even though I'm an asshole to be respectful and appropriate.
Doctors Remedy For the Situations: Take A Dose Of Reality, And Grow THE FUCK UP!
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